I Am

I am the lonely, I am the afraid

It's not a course I've chosen but one I've made

I want to leave this place but it seems I'll stay

in my prision, my life, in my pain

Life's lonely on the outside when everything else is inside

It's an ache that stabs the heart

I wonder if I'll ever know what it is

to see light instead of dark

They see what they want but they don't see me

I am the lonely, I am the afraid

I'm in a prison, a lifelong cage

A bird clipped of its wings

Forever lonely, unable to fly away

The potion concoted by the wizards up high

leave me moody, complacent, and numb

It's candy for some, a vice for me

There is no pleasure in their drink of life

You fear what you don't understand, you don't understand me

Fear leads to judgment, more often in error

Fear is a cancer eating through the soul

Crippling goals, destroying hope

I strive to hang on, find the light through the dark

Yet I see no light, feel no hand to guide my way

I know only the emptiness of a life alone, a life afraid, a life of pain